My love, I am not for the faint of heart.
I am not easy.
I want you to know this before you ever decide to knock on my door and ask to be invited in.
I desire — no, I require — a partner who will challenge me as much as I challenge them. And what a delicious challenge it will be. But know this…it will be a challenge.
Beginnings with me are slow and sure and knowing. I have been burned by the whirlwind romance before and now…now I know that if you are the soul who wants to walk with me, you will take your time.
You will eagerly uncover the parts of me that are preserved for the probing questions that delight my consciousness. You will want to know my deepest desires and most traumatic wounds, but you will be just as enthralled with learning about how I take my coffee. (Hint: it is no longer black, like my soul used to be.)
If you jump straight into talk about the 3D world and swiping one direction or another, I know you are not the one for me. You simply won’t be able to connect with me as deeply as I need you to.
My love, I am not the one for you if you are looking for someone to boost your masculine ego, because yours will already be bold and beautiful and self-assured. But you also know how to keep that ego in check and are fully aware of when it is driving you instead of your soul.
And also know that I will adore stroking your ego, because there is nothing I love more than a man whose energy is that of a warrior, but who can also be soft. Especially in the moments when I want to run my fingernails through your hair or the stubble on your face and purr with delight at your masculinity. You won’t laugh when I run my hands up and down your forearms, because you know that is where I see your strength and power.
You will be comfortable with emotion, because I express every single emotion that I feel in every moment of the day. I will not stifle that vibrant part of my being anymore. I am not talking about drama, but simply the ordinary highs and lows of everyday life that I notice more than others. A laughing baby, my daughter dancing, or my son hitting a homerun will all make me cry. And I will not feel shame for that.
Nor will I hold back when you are not offering me the same level of insight into your soul. I need your words. They make me sing. And as soon as I learn how you take your coffee, I will want to know the deepest darkest corners of your heart. I want to know that you are willing to go to those places with me, even if you have never gone there with anyone else.
It will be worth it, love. I promise.
I will cherish you like you have never been cherished before. I will treat you like a king and kneel at your feet as I rise in my own feminine power. Because I know without a doubt that you will do the same for me.
There will be no games. There will be no filters. Just as there will be no drama. Because authenticity and truth are hypnotic. They will allow us to trust each other and honor each other.
I will want to learn your love language, so I can know how you want to be loved. And I will be honest with you about what you can expect from me.
I may not love to cook, but I will make sure you are fed…body and soul. I will give you as much alone time as you need, because I need the same. I will hold your hand because I cannot stand to be near you and not feel your physical touch. I will play you my favorite music, and I will want to learn all of yours so I can see inside your heart.
I will constantly remind you that you are not the boss of me…and you will also know the moments in which I need you to be the boss. When I will beg you to be the boss of me. Please.
I will show you my love in so many ways, you will ask for a moment to catch your breath. In our most intimate moments, with your hands wrapped in my hair, I will need you to keep up with me. And I know you will.
My love, I am not for the faint of heart.
When you come to me, I will expect steadfastness and strength of spirit. I will expect more than has ever been expected of you.
And I will give it right back to you, tenfold. Because if I invite you in — when I invite you in — I know you will be the one who deserves to receive as much from me as you will offer me.
Now take my hand, love. Hold it in yours as I rest my head on your shoulder.
Walk with me for a while.